Confessions of an American Witch

Occasionally, my wife will say that we are polyamourous. Correction: Khari is poly; I am not. She is free to date whoever she wants to. I, on the other hand, am a Hermit. This is not the first Wicca/Thelemic relationship that I have been in that had this unequal standard, and it's mainly about the fact that I am a really broken person, emotional that is. Due to the child abuse that I suffered (thanks Mom), I was showing signs of suffering dissociative disorder as early as kindergarten. Yeah, I have never been fully able to connect emotionally with another human being. So all of my relationships, from friendships on up, have suffered from my inability to be fully in the moment with another person. Which everyone can detect. And it makes all my partners upset. My solution has always been to allow my partners to have that "full emotion connection" with someone else. It's unfair to them to not to give them that option. Especially if they are Wicca, or Thelemic. Call me ...

Given that I am a professional urban fantasy, "comic book novel," and science fiction author, some of my blog readers may wonder why all of my pen-names are secret. Simple, one of my relatives is bug-shit crazy, and has a lawyer that they abuse me with.  Or at least, they attack me with the idea that they have a lawyer, the entire America legal system on their side, and a "vivid memory" of my father committing an unspeakable crime against them, reminding every two or three years that if I proceed any further as a professional writer that I will go to prison doing hard time for not turning my father in for the crime. Which has no statue of limitations. But Dad's dead--1984, a bag of bones. Yeah, so first lawyer attack, I simply ignore because I have dodged actual prison time. This inability to notice the power of my little sister to rule my life triggers a pattern. It goes like this. Jealous little sister, let's call her "Charity," sees that "M...

Created in 1904 by Aliester Crowley for the initial Book of the Law operations, I fell in love with it when me and Khari attended a class that Master Cherubim did on the ritual. The class included an "all=in" eleven attendees performance of this invocation . . . which I do believe is what set off the events that lead to Bast Temple opening. The two of us, me and Khari, most definitely have this ritual in our "Pop-Up Ritual and Pizza Night" list, if you ever want to surprise my wife with pizza. [Khari has food issues--do not order food ahead of time.] Hoor--Horus the Younger (Golden Dawn Neophyte 0=0 godform colored by MDE) Invocation of Horus Strike, Strike, the Master Chord! Draw, Draw, the Flaming Sword! Crowned Child and Conquering Lord! Horus, Avenger! O Thou, Hawk-Headed Mystical Lord, Thou Whose Word is the Great Reward! Only-begotten Child who I acclaim,  From Mighty Isis and Osiris Slain! Thou Avenger of the Unspeakable Horror: Slayer of Typhon, Thee whom I ...